"Sowing the seeds of Love..."

Random House recently asked that I write an exclusive piece for Amazon.com that would expand on some element of Loon: A Marine Story.

I decided to use the initial correspondence between Bill Negron and me from 1993. These letters were the original beginning of the book, but were left on the cutting-room floor.

Bill is shown in this photo with Dan Burton and me at our first meeting in the fall of 2000. The Amazon piece follows:

"The seeds for Loon: A Marine Story were planted in 1993.  I was working in Washington, DC.  Bill Negron, our company commander in Charlie Company, 1^st Battalion, 4^th Marines, 3^rd Division, was teaching English as a Second Language to Vietnamese children in Scottsdale, Arizona.

I’d had no contact with my marine buddies since I departed Vietnam in July 1968. I had been a corporal serving out the final weeks of my enlistment. Negron had been a captain beginning his second tour in Vietnam.

Over time, I was able to locate him and write the following letter:

Dear Skipper, 

There must be little in you that could recall me after twenty-five years back in the world, but your memory rekindles in me often in a most positive way.

I was visiting the Vietnam Veterans Memorial last night saying yet another fond good evening to our many friends. It’s been twenty-five years since those awful three days that we spent in June 1968 on LZ Loon. The Wall has a lot of black marble dedicated to the memory of our company mates.

I have lost touch with everyone that was with us.  I pushed the experience out of me for many years. Time has smoothed out the rough edges, however, and I am increasingly interested in trying to figure out what in the world was going on over there and how others of us have reacted over time.

What happened with you? Perhaps you were awarded a Navy Cross or a Silver Star. I can think of no one, Skipper, who upheld higher standards of character under fire than you did.  You were an exceptional leader and I owe you my life for getting us off that hill.

Bill’s reply arrived several weeks later.

Dear Jack,

There is still a part of my memory left that recalls you, not many of my troopers left Vietnam to go to Harvard.  I haven’t heard from more than two or three guys who survived “Loon”.

I’ve only been to the wall once; it was one of those snowy cold winter days that shuts DC down. My tears froze on my face.  Yes, Charlie Company is well represented in black marble.  It is up to us, the living to keep their memory alive. We must remember them as they were, laughing, talking, having a beer.

I returned to Vietnam in 1973, my third tour.  I guess I got pretty burnt out and became a real problem for my family and the Cops.  I did manage to eventually retire in 1981 as a Lieutenant Colonel.  My first wife divorced me because she thought I was a little “fucked up”, she was probably right.

P.S.  I was nominated for a Navy Cross, but it was downgraded to a Silver Star.  I’m very proud of my Silver Star.

Several days later, I was surprised to receive the following letter from Bill’s wife Myrna:

Dear Jack,

The letter you wrote my husband, Bill Negron, brought him to tears.  He believes very strongly that his kids from Vietnam may be suffering.  He feels responsible for every man that served with him that didn’t make it home.

Seeking Bill out was important to him.  He is proud of you, and I think that’s important for you to know.  I wish he could hear from other men that were with him.

I never fully understood the meaning of closure or PTSD until I met Bill and other Vets from Vietnam.  If you know of any other men that served with you, I’m sure Bill would like to know they made it home.

Bill Negron is probably the toughest, kindest, gentlest man on earth. This is the man I married and the man you fought next to in Vietnam.  He is a proud American, and very proud of you too.

From that moment, Bill Negron and I began to track down the lost boys of Charlie Company one by one. 

Tens years later, I was driven to write our story. It has been at once the most glorious and humbling experience of my life."

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Author's note: Many readers have expressed interest in the, occasionally oblique, song references that I use for my titles. Heretofore I will endeavor, at the conclusion of each blog, to identify same for those few who may miss the link.

Sowing the Seeds of Love by Tears for Fears